Good morning,
So, I'm back. I have really really been struggling with my weight recently, and this morning I was thinking to myself perhaps I need to start journaling (and not just what I eat -- although that too), but journaling about his process or gaining and losing and -- to quote Andie Mitchell (who's blog never fails to lift me up) -- loving myself at every weight.
Well since I've last spoken to all of you I've moved from New York to Atlanta and finally to Salt Lake City, UT. I've also gained nearly 60 pounds. Making me the heaviest I've ever been. Okay, I have recently lost some weight so I am currently 8 pounds under the heaviest I have ever been. Also, it should be noted that those 8 pounds have come off painfully slowly, and I mean PAINFULLY slowly.
My biggest struggle right now (and probably always, if I'm being honest) is binge eating. I am a textbook case of Binge Eating Disorder(BED). And while I've known this for sometime, I think this is the first time in my life I am looking at this disorder as an actual disorder, as opposed to just my lack of willpower and self control
I've started reading a few books on BED, and hopefully someday soon I will muster up the courage to start treatment with a therapist.
In the meantime I'll be tracking my calories, and weighing in weekly on Wednesdays (mostly because I like the alliteration).
I will also be checking in here with my thoughts, my struggles, my triumphs, my self proclaimed "witty" observations, and my weigh-ins.
