Hiding from my health coach...

Good Morning,

So yesterday I confessed my weekend blunders to all of you, and yet I haven't called my Health Coach in weeks.

Did I tell you I have a health coach?  Because I do, and she is wonderful, and knowledgeable and kind, so very very kind.  Yet, somehow I feel like I can only call her when I have good news to report.  I want to call her up and say 

"Yes of course I stuck to the plan you gave me!"  
"Yes of course I lost X amount of pounds this week" 
"Yes I do feel so much better than I used to"

But I can't say any of those things. Right now I don't feel better, I haven't stuck to the plan, and I gained a pound this week.  What's strange is I have a health coach to help me through all of this. To help me when I'm struggling, and yet I only seem to reach out to her when I'm not.  Sometimes I look at before and after photos, I read stories of the women who have lost the weight and changed their lives and they are always saying "If I can do, so can you!", but it doesn't always feel like that is the case.  I have dreamt about being thin my whole life, I have wanted it so badly I could taste it (while simultaneously tasting cake back in the real world... go figure), yet a small part of me seems to have accepted I will never actually get there.  

So... here is to hoping that small part of me is wrong.  And to that end, I solemnly swear to call my Health Coach tonight, and actually tell her what has been going on, and then I am going to listen to what she says and actually try to do it. 

~Meg